i've just been back from fms 2008 camp.
and although it was mainly very exhausting, all in all it was pretty much one of the better camps i've been.

initially, it was pretty hard to go around and introduce yourself. there is always this possibility that you will look like a dork and being overly enthusiastic. but i wanted to make new acquaintances and i guess in a way i did. phone numbers were exchanged, topics of various kind and i'm kind of surprised i actually had subjects to talk about.

i'm always worried to find topics to talk about. i mean, with the clique i can come up with random topics and they will just listen no matter how bizarre or how random it is. i don't even need to complete my sentence and they can understand me. mentioning this, i have this huge problem with allowing people to comprehend what i'm saying. with my various buddies, it doesn't become an alien language. occasionally my whole mind is jumbled up that i just say what's on the tip, so when it comes out from my mouth people would stare at me blankly. surprisingly-or rather not surprisingly- with the clique i can safely say at least half of them understand what i'm talking about when i'm doing my usual rambles.

i've also realized i have a pretty short memory and to anyone i've offended for not remembering you i'm sorry.

you wonder how people are charismatic that human beings of any kind are just drawn to them. their confidence is so outright and yet not to the point of overwhelming.

we all like to be liked. and sometimes although i admit that i struggle to climb up the ladder, i'm contented to stay the bottom and watch the crowd.

because sometimes old friends are just the healthy dose of medicine to put you in mind.